Chalet with the Macphersonians! (Class N3D)

28 10 2008

Went to Downtown East chalet yesterday! The same one as the UG Camp Instructors’. Hanging out with all 15 year olds, and in a situation where I’m the oldest! HAHA! We spent the night watching dvds! I brought Happy Feet! Luckily for me we didn’t hang out outside instead as I was very tired after working in the morning till afternoon at mac. And you know, when you go to ECP Mac on a public holiday… So I dozed off while watching the dvd halfway. Anyway, chalet’s fun! The students are great!

Photos will be uploaded soon!





Kie Wee

28 10 2008

Met up with this good ol’ friend of mine, whom I believe had deep karmic connection with.

One of the moments with him that I’ll never forget is the first day of school in Sec 2. Where I got promoted into his class. Back then he was holding a broom sweeping the floor and I think I went to introduce myself to him, and then his reaction kinda freaks me out! Cuz he raised his voice (oh well, it’s his normal voice level), and react in a way that I find very amusing. And that’s my first impression on him. So from then onwards, I’ll kind of “poke” him and “ji-siao” him, just to see the way he reacts. And that draws us closer. Just a month after I know him, I started to ‘harrass’ him and ‘force’ him to join redcross! That was hardwork alright! It’s like pulling a stubborn bull out to the field. However, I believe he never regrets joining as its where he found lasting friends and relationships.

And we’re very much alike, not just physically!

Classmate for 3 years! Friends 4eva!





Photos over the weekend

28 10 2008




Prayer for Self-Love

27 10 2008

 

Today, God-of-All-That-Is, Creator of the Universe, my Angels, my Spirit Guides, my Evolutionary Orientors, Hilarion, I know that for years, and perhaps over lifetimes, I’ve been unloving to myself. I judge, disrespect and don’t trust myself, so much that I lose the confidence and self-esteem I have for myself and allow others to hurt me. I disregard myself just to be accepted by others. I don’t accept myself for who I am, and disown my responsibilities and causing myself much suffering through self-sabotage. I look down upon myself before anyone else does. I haven’t been very forgiving to myself. I’ve created a wall that blocks any forms of love through me in all directions. Fear envelops me. Fear of being in love, fear of rejection.

Today, I ask that you help me to accept myself just the way I am, without judgment. Help me to accept my mind the way it is, with all my emotions, my hopes and dreams, my personality, my unique way of being. Help me to accept my body just the way it is, with all its beauty and perfection. Let the love I have for myself be so strong that I never again reject myself or sabotage my happiness, freedom and love.

From now on, let every action, every reaction, every thought, and every emotion, be based on love. Help me to increase my self-love until the entire dream of our life is transformed, from fear and drama to love and joy. Let the power of my self-love be strong enough to break all the lies I was programmed to believe – all the lies that tell me I’m not good enough, not strong enough, or intelligent enough, that I cannot make it. Let the power of my self-love be so strong that I no longer need to live my life according to other people’s opinions. Let me trust myself completely to make choices I must make. With my self-love, I’m no longer afraid to face any responsibility in my life or face any problems and resolve them as they arise. Whatever I want to accomplish, let it be done with the power of my self-love.

Starting today, help me to love myself so much that I never set up any circumstances that go against myself. I can live my life being myself and not pretending to be someone else just to be accepted by other people. I no longer need other people to accept me or tell me how good I am because I know what I am. With the power of my self-love, let me enjoy what I see every time I look in the mirror. Let there be a big smile on my face that enhances my inner and outer beauty. Help me to feel such intense self-love that I always enjoy my own presence.

Let me love myself without judgment, because when I judge, I carry blame and guilt, I have the need for punishment, and I lose the perspective of love. Strengthen my will to forgive myself in this moment. Clean my mind of emotional poison and self-judgments so I can live in complete peace and love.

Let my self-love be the power that changes the dream of my life. With this new power in my heart, the power of self-love, let me transform every relationship I have, beginning with the relationship I have with myself. Help me to free any conflict with others. Let me be happy to share my time with my loved ones and to forgive them for any injustice I feel in my mind. Help me to love myself so much that I forgive anyone who has ever hurt me in my life.

Give me the courage to love my family and friends unconditionally, and to change my relationships in the most positive and loving way. Help me to create new channels of communication in my relationships so there is no war of control, there is no winner or loser. Together let us work as a team for love, for joy, for harmony.

Let my relationships with our family and friends be based on respect and joy so I no longer have the need to tell them how to think or how to be. Let my romantic relationship be the most wonderful relationshop; let me feel joy every time I share myself with my partner. Help me to accept others just the way they are, without judgment, because when I reject them, I reject myself. When I reject myself, I reject all there is.

Today is a new beginning. Help me to start my life over beginning today with the power of self-love. Help me to enjoy my life, to enjoy my relationships, to explore life, to take risks, to be alive, and to no longer live in fear of love. Let me open my heart to the love that is my birthright. Help me to become Master of Gratitude, Generosity, and Love so that I can enjoy all of creations forever and ever.

Amen.

 

Gratitude towards Don M. Ruiz for inspiring this prayer in me through his sharing and teachings.





爱来过 (S.H.E.)

27 10 2008

I’m a fan of S.H.E. ever since Sec 2! But I only bought 1 album of theirs, I forgotten the name of it, but the theme is of Persian, where they sang ‘Superstar’, ‘Bo Si Mao’ and ‘Shi Mian Mai Fu’, the third one is my fav song of this girl band until now. After that I was slowly updated with their songs and albums through friends. This is the latest one given to me by Jiemin. Thanks! I love this song! The part where one of them sang to the highest pitch is simply so nice!

爱来过

我看不开也放不开
因为我曾见过爱情真的盛开
我要等待一直等待
等那一个夜晚从回忆回来
当你拥抱着我那一瞬间
我像飞到空中
而当我缓缓降落我不再是我
我有了梦我在梦中
爱来过来得那么美那么凶
欢呼着从我生命狠狠辗过
连遗憾也都不争气的
珍惜成笑容
爱来过让我完整过幸福过
怎么能轻易就放它走
我不想解脱我只怕错过
我就是要等你回来爱我
Ho……
Hu……iye iye…
寂寞喧哗我不害怕
因为我只听得见对你的牵挂
世界很大会容得下
我这小小傻傻顽固的信仰
你有没有过承诺我已忘了
那已不重要了
反正我都会守候在梦中守候
我最唯一最美的梦
我就是要等你回来
如果需要动用奇迹来召唤回你
就让泪蒸发下成雪花
和我一起在爱中被融化
爱来过让我完整过(让我)幸福过
爱来过让我完整过让我幸福

 

 

 





End of Week 1 of Semester 2.2

27 10 2008

What a week! First week of school is always shiok, perhaps only in terms of polytechnic students. No tutorials and labs! Just lectures. But for me first week of school has something extra, it’ll be the birthday week for me too! Last year, my birthday falls on the first day of school, and this year, on the third day of school.

Don’t really like my modules.

Birthday was great!

Ever since Thursday night I supposed, suddenly theres a surge of negativity within me that keeps growing. And it got very bad. My confidence, mood and happiness drops. And when I sleep, I got nightmares for the past few nights, and when I woke up, I felt as if I didn’t had a good start of the day. It gotten so bad that I started to pray. Pray for help to get me out of this self-caused distress.

I’m very fortunate and appreciative that I have people around me that I can turn to, to talk to with ease and understand the motions that I’m going through. With much gratitude and appreciation.





Cycling with Junie and Gregory

27 10 2008

Worked in the morning at mac as usual.

Yet another day of cycling! This time we Junie and Gregory. Invited Jiemin but she had a family outing which, perhaps coincidently was held at east coast park too! Actually we were looking out for her, yet couldn’t spot her, while, ironically, she claimed to saw us and shouted for us, yet we couldn’t hear a thing. What a waste.

We cycled to Bedok Jetty and then to the end of Fort Road. We encountered something new today:

It’s known as “Kangaroo Jumps”. It cost above S$350 and it can be rented for $10/hr at Playground @BigSplash. I saw many people began hopping around in these! It’s meant to lower the impact on one’s lower body, primary on the legs, so as to incur healthy benefits to the body.

Interested? http://www.kangoojumps.com/pags.php?d=O14O1

Perhaps it can make one grow taller? *kekekeke*

After that we went to parkway to shop! I bought three things today: 2009 edition of Street Directory and Bus Directory and a Sony earpiece. The street directory that I was using before I bought the new one today was the 2002 edition! And guess what? There’s no such thing as vivocity in it! As well as circle line! However in the new directory, there’s so many new roads and places. It shows the entire circuit of Circle Line, as well as the future plan for the even more latest mrt line – Downtown Line. I didn’t know earpieces are not so expensive these days (I seldom shop for gadgets). I bought a Sony earpiece for $19! It’s below my budget!





Movie Weekend

27 10 2008

What a week of movies! Rec on friday night and 20th Century Boys on Saturday night.

Hey, you may think these film are not so popular, but they’re good! And they’ll have sequels! And I bet that then it’ll be a movie well sought after, so hurry go watch these before you regret not watching when everybody’s watching the sequel next year!

Anyway, Rec is the move that “Quarantine” is based on. A spanish movie.

It’s like: Cloverfield+The Mist+Twenty-eight Days Later+The Exorcist = Rec.

Though the story is pretty much the same, I’ll still watch Quarantine.

20th Century Boys is a big hit in Japan! And it’s as good as Death Note! Yes, it’s another, “End of the world” and “Saving the world” kind of theme, but you know those japanese, they’re just so creative that they can write just so many episodes of comics to end a world, and another set of it to save that world. That’s very impressive! It’s a trilogy:

20th Century Boys – 1st Chapter

20th Century Boys – 2nd Chapter

21st Century Boys – 3rd Chapter

The second one is expected to be release in Singapore in Feb-Apr 2009 and the last installment in the fourth quarter of next year.

So go watch now so that you can enjoy watching the entire trilogy! Best is that at the end of the movie, you’ll be kept in suspense and eager to know what will happen in the sequel and that’s just so exciting!





Exploring the West

27 10 2008

Supposed to go to Fusionopolis, http://www.fusionopolis.a-star.edu.sg/, with Mr. HHH and Mr. Ow, since we’re heading to the west, I suggested going to the only branch that Nihon Mura has in the west for our brunch. It’s located at Jurong West Sports and Recreation Centre, Jurong West St 93. So the day before this trip, I did my homework and found that it’s actually quite near boon lay mrt.

While travelling at AYE, I happily saw an exit that states, Jurong West, so we happily enter, assuming to see St 93, popping right in front of us. However, street numbers are everywhere! And we actually got lost in Jurong! And I was wondering why in Jurong West is right in the middle of Boon Lay? Doesn’t Boon Lay have an estate of its own. Then we saw weird street names like, ‘International Road’ and ‘Coporation Road’, and we’re like lost in the middle between industries and residences!

Thankfully, we have a map in the car! Gosh! The scariest part is when I see so many signboards all over the place pointing street numbers everywhere! It make the whole place looks complicated and like a maze. Then I was relieved to see Hua Yi Sec, where I camped before for Red Cross’s West District Camp earlier this year, and Shuqun Sec, where I helped out the First Aid Com, which was held there last year. Phew… I’m not so lost afterall.

We managed to reach the recreation centre. It’s very big and nice. There’s a water playground with fountains everywhere! And it has all sports facilities under one roof. But getting there was like, Damn! The experience at that particular branch of Nihon Mura wasn’t that good. The salmon could be fresher.

The worse feeling I got at the West was two years ago, and the story goes like this:

It was after my O’s and while working at the airport and still wanted to seek a new job. So I checked the newspaper and found a job. I forgotten the newspaper description of the job, but when I got there and know more about it, I wasn’t very happy. It’s actually a sales job, selling pens and wallets and other stuffs. And we’re supposed to go out to the streets and sell! It’s like those people walking around hawker centre selling tissues. The office was at chinatown. And on the first day, a senior brought us around, for a so-called training. And we were brought all the way to Boon Lay!!!

It’s like going to a very unfamiliar place with strangers and that’s kind of disturbing, especially when we headed to those industrial areas! We took a bus that took us deep into industry buildings and no estates could be seen! There we sold wallets to the manual labourers and some blue-collar workers. At the interchange, I saw the longest queue I ever saw back then, (well,  that’s before I take bus 69 from bedok inter to TP), it’s like a long human barrier dividing the interchange, all full of young adults, and they’re actually queueing for a bus to go NTU. Then there’s so many people in uniform in different clusters all over the interchange! Really like a country kid lost in a urban maze, back then.

After that we returned to Chinatown. And decided to make it the last time I’m going back to that office. Kie Wee’s workplace was near the office, and after a day of being in unknown territory, with strangers, it feels good to have a good old friend around. Well, I wasn’t familiar with Chinatown then as well.

I wanna go Boon Lay mrt again! This time is to really explore and get rid of that irritating feeling that I had for that place.

Actually, I’m quite familiar with Jurong East! JE! I went there like 8-10 times this year itself! For Red Cross stuffs and to go Acer to fix my laptop. And after going round Jurong West on friday, I’m quite okay with that area, with great assistance from the street directoy, perhaps its just the street numbers that freaks me out. Imagine an estate with 90 over streets? And with so many avenues? Just when I thought Bedok was like that until I’d explored it thoroughly ever since I enter TP, which is in Bedok.

I’m so grateful I live in Marine Parade! It’s just a simple stretch of road, parallel to east coast park. It has no avenues, no street numbers and its just one simple road which does not go circular. There’s just Marine Parade Road, Marine Drive, Marine Crescent, Marine Terrace and Marine Vista. Although it has no mrt, but it has buses that goes as far as to all directions Jurong East in the West, Yishun in the North, Punggol in the North-East, Pasir Ris and Changi Airport in the East, and into town area as well. All in a bus stop that’s 2min way from my doorstep.

Anyway, from Jurong West, we went to NUS. And damn, if only I got the $$$. I love books! I bought a book about social psychology. I find it very interesting, as it reflects studies done by psychological researchers who studied on human relationships! They actually studied like how people initiate contact with others, and how friendships, romantic relationships, companionships are formed and progress. I guess that’s what I want to be, studying about ourselves! I like to go to their bookshops. It gives inspiration and motivation. It provides a feeling of abundance knowledge and that there’s still so much out there to learn! It gives the feeling of hope and dreams. Every time I enter there, I just can’t wait to do my psychology degree, no matter what people say about how hard it is, or how inapplicable it is to get a high-paying job in this country. Because the feeling tells me that: It’s not about making money, or studying for the sake of anything, but pure passion for learning and pursuing what intrigues one’s heart and soul.





What Dreams May Come (Movie)

23 10 2008

I watched this movie two nights ago, and its one that is very beautiful and touching.

The movie is about two soulmates, who have such strong affinity with each other that love at first sight occurs. Got married and started a family. Tragedy take place. Soon, the family perished and left only the wife to live as a widow who loses her children as well; while the husband united with his children in the extraphysical plane.

The part that made me cried tears of joy was when the couple decided to reincarnate together, and promise to find each other in their next life. Which happened, as they found each other by the coast, and even as young as children, they feel for each other as if they’ve known one another for eternity.

Love for a child, love for your significant others; and after life there is more.





My 18th Birthday

23 10 2008

Yesterday, I jogged to Bedok Jetty as usual and lay down on the ground, relaxing after a run, took out my specs and just gaze at the stars… Reflection in progress. How wonderful it is.

I’m now officially 18.

Happy Birthday Zach!

Planned to do something new, or significant. So I decided to return to Bedok Reservoir after 1 whole year of absence of jogging there.

No lessons today! Its lab through out and there’s no labwork during the first week of school.

So first I went Planet Fitness, jogged 5km on the threadmill in 38min.

Then ate Yong Tau Foo for lunch.

Went back home and get ready for a trip to TP. I went to TP’s track and field and jogged 2km in the track for 14min. Desiree spotted me and had a chat with her.

Headed to Bedok Reservoir and jogged 3 rounds non-stop, with 10min rest between each round. 36min, 38min and 40min respectively.

In total, 5+2+ (3 x 4.8) = 21.4km!

Actually… I aim to run 10 rounds around Bedok Reservoir, to hit 55km in total. HOWEVER!!!, it rained heavily in the midst of my 3rd round. Well, I’m all wet with sweat already, no room for rainwater… And I don’t wanna fall sick! I shall try again next time!

I aim to join Standard Chartered Marathon next year, as this year’s one had closed its application.

Met up parents and grandpa for dinner. I wanted to eat Jap food, however, the moment I say ‘jap food’, my mother will think it’s expensive! Well, actually its not very… compared to ‘Zi Char’ which we went!

Why I want jap food is because not only its healthy, but also they can’t smoke in a air-con restaurant! In the end we went to a coffeeshop to eat, and they smoked… Hmmm, no matter what I say, they just can’t appreciate healthy diet, and I just have to compromise to have a meal with them. So I ate hot plate toufu and kang kong, and skipped the curry fish head. Damn, there’s minced chicken in the hot plate!

After that, it’s time to cut cake! We went to my aunt’s house. I love the cake, very chocolatey. Sinful! My cousins bought me some sparkling juice. Claodia, my lovely cousin, dedicated a song, ‘Happy Birthday’ by Click Five, to me on 91.3FM. That’s very sweet! Thank you!

Lindah, my McCafe colleague, whose birthday is two days before mine, is going to exchange presents with me! Meeting her next week!

A big thank you to all my family and friends who wished me!

Zach is no longer a teenager. Neither a boy nor a man.

Nice birthday celebrations this year!





Thanks Mikki

23 10 2008

http://eloquentt-silence.blogspot.com/2008_10_01_archive.html

Alright, referring to her post in the link above.

Thanks for wishing me!

Didn’t knew that I was the first guy who introduce himself to you. Well, first day in class mah, so of course I introduce myself around lor, just so happened you sat opposite me.

Anyway, we kinda click well.

You’re a nice friend, and well, friends forever!

And… good luck to weight-loss! Unfortunately, one may have to go on a green diet for optimal result.

Don’t give up! I’m here to give you support and advice!





Last day being 17.

21 10 2008

Tomorrow’s my birthday, and I’m thinking what to do tomorrow.

I want to do something that’s significant. Somethink I’ve not done before, or achieve something, just to commemorate my entrance into adolescence, on the day I turn 18. No longer am I a teenager.

To others, turing 18 may means ability to buy cigarettes, alcohol or clubbing. Well, I don’t fall into this group.

Perhaps, I’m glad that I can watch M18 movies and learn driving.

Most importantly, it’s time to grow up. And the moment a person takes up responsibility for himself, that is when he grows up.

Alright, tomorrow I’m going to do something worthwhile!





Start of Semester 2.2

21 10 2008

My timetable looks good! Four day week!

Monday: 9am to 6pm. 1hr break from 12pm-1pm.

Tuesday: 9am to 7pm. 3hrs break from 1pm-4pm.

Wednesday: 9am to 6pm. 2hrs break from 1pm-3pm.

Thursday: 9am to 4pm. 1hr break from 12pm-1pm.

Friday, Sat, Sun: No School!!!

It’s just like working hours, 9-6. But at least I got off on fridays!

However, the modules are only getting more boring…

I study things like:

  • Plant Safety and Loss Prevention
  • Unit Operations 2
  • Principles of Instrumental Analysis
  • Process Instrumentation and Control
  • Communication Skills 3
  • Psychology of Creativity (cross-discipline elective)

I’m only looking foward to the last two. The others just make me dim my eyes… It’s all engineering stuffs!

Had my first lecture yesterday, and I’m glad to see my coursemates again, after 1.5 months of holidays!





End of Week 7, End of Holidays.

21 10 2008

Holiday’s over. Guess what? It’s my best holiday ever! It’s so well-spent and I’ve never wasted any time during this 7 weeks, and did whatever that I enjoyed.

  1. Success in losing weight
  2. Healthy Diet
  3. Stamina increased
  4. Shopping Trips
  5. Movies
  6. Japanese Lunch Buffets
  7. Bought and read new books
  8. Tutoring
  9. Teaching in school
  10. Breaking work record at Mac
  11. Learn Yoga
  12. Learn Roller-blading
  13. Watching Star-Trek
  14. NDP 2008 Gathering
  15. Marine Parade – Orchard Night Cycling
  16. Toastmasters Area Contest
  17. Pulau Ubin Cycling Trip
  18. Class BBQ
  19. UG Camp Instructors Chalet
  20. Rockclimbing & Abseiling
  21. East Coast Park Cycling Trip
  22. Southern Ridges Trail
  23. Make new friends
  24. Strengthen current friendships
  25. Catch up with friends
  26. Give out flyers (name cards)
  27. Earn money more than ever!
  28. And of course, starting this blog!

I’ve done many things that I’d never done before. So many things that I’ve enjoyed. Gained experiences, knowledge and learnt alot. New interactions with new friends, in Macpherson, Mac, gym, through friends, UG buddies. Being adventurous and active.

My weight has gone down and I just need to lose 1kg more to lose 10kg altogether since I started 7 weeks ago.

Alright, time to move on. The next vacation is mid-Feb to mid-April 2009. Hopefully by then I’ll be slim and able to blade well. I want to go overseas! Well, I shall not be too ambitious and aim to go Europe (Germany) or USA. Maybe Malaysia will do, or even Hong Kong! Sponsorship anyone? *kekekeke*